Maybe Its Just Not Me

I'm hurting us...
I know it and you know it,
And it hurts.
I know i am different from the girl you fell in love with.
So much has changed.
Tenderness is gone, all there is, is hostility and pain.
Where there was once Fun and Life, there is now Boredom.
If only you knew how I feel everytime I say no to going out
If only you knew the inhibitions holding me back.
I think you stay because you hope the me you love will return
but I fear that that me has left the building.
I feel sorrow for that part of me that is dead.
Because when I look into your eyes, I see that you miss her so,
the me with joy and laughter and life.
Were there was hope there is now fear
the fear that this me may be too hard for you to bear
the fear that someday you will up and leave
 in disappointment of the loss of who I used to be.
I love you and dont want to let you go,
but still i am wise enough to know
that your heart longs for that missing part
and I fear that maybe its just not me.